being a libra is pretty hard, isn't it? to only have eyes for someone you know you can never have. when you initially think, "hey this guy is cute", from just wanting to see him cos it makes you happy to ogle at cute guys, somehow you'll start thinking about him, day and night, what he does and how he treats you starts to bother you. when he's nice to you, your whole world goes all flowery, but you get dumped to the deepest darkest side of the world when he pulls back, and your world shatters into pieces, millions billions trillions of them. your eyes start turning green as you see him talking to other people, thinking, "i want him to do the same to me" after some time, you start thinking, he's not that great after all, and your eyes grow red, and you start thinking that he wasn't that great after all, that was when you stop, full of regrets, wondering why you even started this in the first place. loving is really difficult, let alone finding someone you loe who truly loves you back. and guys are just guys, they don't understand that sincerety could deeply move us, girls. they don't understand that all they've had to do is persevere on, let her know how much she's being loved, appreciated. that's all there is, in moving girls. they don't understand, probably would never do, and that's what causing so much misery. why don't they just stop being so egoistical and stop to think. heckk, i think i'm probably starting to hate guys, in terms of relationships. that's why i have to be independent, can't rely on stinking guys.
that's where the difference in buddies and guys come in i suppose, friends are still friends no matter what, and buddies are friends. even if you can't fully rely on them, it's ok, cos they can cheer you up anyways. perhaps i'm the naive one, the one who's not ready for any sort of commitment. i'm still a kid after all, the only thing i care about is having fun, even at the risk of straining my ankle for the first time. there's always a first time to everything, no matter how painful it is, i just hafta get through it, then i'll be a stronger person. thinking back, peterson makes alot of sense. i respect him now, hope it's not too late.
i feel stupid. i can't seem to do my math homework at all this week. what's getting into me?? i'm getting from dumb to dumberer, and i hate it, to the core! helpp, i need someone to get me out of this whole mess, if there's anyone actually. everything feels so empty now, and i'm munching on fattening froot loops now, in the middle of the night, and i won't be able to exercise for a few more weeks. -.-" eat gita, and grow fat, and be an outcast all your life.
*say you love me