DON'T TALK TO ME! you'll start to hate me the way i hated myself after talking to me, and i don't wanna be hated, neither do i wanna be forgotten. i'm sorry for being selfish but that's just me.
had a very very bad day, screwed up everything. i can't even fill up a stupid form properly, and i brought so much trouble to my parents. i promise i'll be a better daughter, stop bickering and learn to compromise. thank you sooo much for not scolding me but instead giving me such a reassuring "leave everything to me", but i don't deserve it. i should have been scolded, shouted at, and probably sent to china to atone for my stupidities. i love you daddie, i really really do but i just can't bring the words out in front of you. thank you thank you thanks so much for everything you've done for me.
i'm feeling horrible. some car just knock me down. i seriously hate myself, so i don't expect anyone to love me either, but if you already did, i won't ask you to continue loving me, cos i don't deserve it, just don't hate me. why am i always so dependent on others? and just a few weeks ago, i was boasting about how independent i am cos i'm living all by myself. but i still need other people's help! grow up gita, grow up, don't be so naive, you can't do anything on your own, you're just a nuisance. i know no man can live alone, but i am just plain irritating, a pest to everyone, so i should just disappear. sorry to everyone whom this applies to, i'll try to not irritate you anymore and goodbye...
*say you love me